Weekly Photo Challenge: Regret

“In order to preserve your self-respect, it is sometimes necessary to lie and cheat.” --- Robert Byrne

Cheating — may it be on exams, dieting, lovelife, career, etc — is always wrong in a number of levels and it has become my main regret. I am just so glad that I was able to stop my cravings before it was too late.

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The Levels of Cheating . . .

“In order to preserve your self-respect, it is sometimes necessary to lie and cheat.” --- Robert Byrne

I admit that I cheated and I have learned from it. I am also thankful that Dada was there to support me despite my weak resolve. He explained to me that the gravity of cheating varies — so does the punishment. I couldn’t describe it more so I just thought of putting our conversation about it. (not the exact words but the gist is the same)

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Routine — Cuddling . . .

Sleeping, bathing, tooth-brushing, eating, breathing, walking to school or to the office, doing chores, finishing tasks, communicating and mingling with other people — these are just some of the things that we do on a regular basis in order to live.

Life itself is a routine. Sometimes, these routines tend to be boring. What we need to do is add up some spice for them not to be boring.

These are some repetitive things that I enjoy doing…

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CUDDLING

Believe it or not, being in a relationship can be a chore. I know a lot of people who were in a relationship for three years or more who’d suddenly break-up with their boyfriends or girlfriends. When I asked them why, they told me the same answer — “He/She is getting boring.”

It’s understandable if a break-up is caused by a third-party or by irreconcilable differences… but boredom as a reason is beyond my comprehension. As Dada quotes it, “If you find your boyfriend boring, then why did you go with him in the first place?”

I must admit, it also crossed my mind that my relationship with Dada is becoming dull because we only get to do the usual things — plan our once-a-week get together, watch movies, have late night din-dins, go shopping, or play online games. We do these even on special occasions such as birthdays and anniversaries. We rarely go out-of-town or visit places.

I guess, the key to preventing boredom is to know where your partner is coming from. Communication helps a lot in settling dilemmas (then add a lot of hugs and kisses).

Whenever I am frustrated or whenever I think Dada’s becoming too lazy, I often snarl at him and tell him how I feel. He will always explain his side and I try my best to understand him (although I’m usually stubborn and deaf when I’m angry). Dada is an introvert and he is content with our usual activities. There are also times when he can’t think of any ideas so he relies on me to fill in for him. Sometimes, he wants to get my input first before he can formulate a plan. With that said, I’m mostlydoing the planning and he’s the one doing everything else. LoL!

“Sometimes, the boring things in life are the ones we remember the most.”Russell, UP (Pixar)

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This is in response to the 30-days blogging challenge.

Routine — Blogging . . .

Sleeping, bathing, tooth-brushing, eating, breathing, walking to school or to the office, doing chores, finishing tasks, communicating and mingling with other people — these are just some of the things that we do on a regular basis in order to live.

Life itself is a routine. Sometimes, these routines tend to be boring. What we need to do is add up some spice for them not to be boring.

These are some repetitive things that I enjoy doing…

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BLOGGING

From grade school up ’til high school, we were required by the teachers to write on our school-mandated diaries and take into account the things that happened each day. Failure to put an entry merits a detention. I only have a few friends and I seldom tell my secrets and frustrations to anyone. It was my diary who’d know it firsthand — followed by our class adviser. LoL! Since then, I’ve been fond of writing journals.

My first blog...

My buddies introduced me to VOX way back in 2007. Since blogs serve as a virtual counterpart of a diary, I’ve also been addicted to it. I  then transferred to WordPress when VOX closed down. Hopefully, they don’t share the same fate.

Anyway…

Blogging is therapeutic for me. Same as before, I only have a few friends and I am an introvert. I am better at writing than actually uttering the words. My blog serves as an outlet of my thoughts. If I want my own feelings and opinions to come across, this is where I primarily post it.

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NEXT: Cuddling . . .

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This is in response to the 30-days blogging challenge.

Regrets . . .

I never had major regrets although there are instances wherein I ‘ll think of my past decisions or doings as a waste of my time, money or effort.

These are some of the things I did that made me upset …

  • I should never have bought a Philips GoGear Spark. I should’ve invested my money for an iPod. My DAP began malfunctioning a few months after I bought it. The fault is irritating but tolerable.
  • I should never have trusted headphones other than those from Sennheiser. The Audio-Technica ATH-SJ1 I bought was a waste of moneysomewhat. I gave it to my younger sister as a present.
  • I should’ve saved up money to buy my own dSLR.
  • I should’ve stuck to my diet so my face and tummy will not bloat.
  • I should’ve organized or attended at least one photoshoot.
  • I should’ve grabbed the collar and kicked the a$$ of that guy who rammed me with his motorbike.

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Anyway, these’re what’s on top of my head.

The one other thing that I pondered on for a very long time is my otaku side.

What could’ve happened if I am not into animé and computer games? Prolly, I’ll be a beauty pageant freak or a fashionista or someone famous. LoL!

The only thing is, if I wasn’t an otaku, I may never have met my Dada. He’s contributed much to me. I cannot imagine what my life would be like if he’s not even a part of it.

Like what’s engraved on the personalized key-chain I gave him …

“If the things that happened to me never happened … I would never have met you, I would neve have your love and I will never know the true meaning of happiness.”™

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This is in response to the 30-days blogging challenge.

How I Met My Dada ♥ ♥ ♥

How I Met My Dada ♥ ♥ ♥

This is probably the most unusual, risky but at the same time romantic experience I had in my entire life!

This is how it goes (people who do not know pRO nor MMORPG stuff may not get this, though). . .

During the ßeta days of Philippine Ragnarök Online (pRO), Anki (my boyfriend that time, ex-bf now) and I planned on being the first couple to be wed in-game (using my swordsman and his thief). We invited a lot of Game Masters and our online buddies to attend the ceremony but we still lacked one person — that was the priest.

We were leveling up in the Prontera (the Capital town) fields when we met an acolyte named Deers. Since he was the first priest-to-be that we approached, he agreed on “blessing” us. He said he researched and practiced what to say on the ceremony. Hahaha! He also requested to have his buddy, Rei (an archer) watch the celebration.

Unfortunately, Anki stopped playing pRO before the wedding because he was petitioned by his parents to get Australian citizenship. I also halted because I lost my job and was pressured to help with my mom’s business. Rei and I still talked over the phone, though. His voice reminded me so much of my college friend, Dan, that’s why I liked talking to him.

Several months later, Rei convinced me to play pRO again but we left the Chaos server and moved to Iris for a fresh start. I made a priest named – Rain –. That was the first time I created a FS character. After a week, Rei introduced me to A£endar (knight) and ay1ko (swordsman), which he said were his friends. He then told me that the knight was actually the alternate character of Deers.

A£endar and I often party-up during night time and got to talk more. I told him that Anki went abroad and he didn’t have the chance to play since foreign IP addresses were blocked from entering pRO servers. He also told me his real name and we often talk on the phone. Because we were getting close, Rei often teased us and he said I might have a crush on him (A£endar). I told him I got scared because his voice was intimidating and the picture that formed in my head was of a tall, fat nerd with thick black-framed eyeglasses. Hahaha!

We were supposed to meet up on the War of Emperium launch in Glorietta but I didn’t have enough cellphone credits to tell him where I was. I won in the Senior Division of the fan-art contest while Alodia won the Junior division. She mocked my drawing and told her “friends” that theirs were much better. Well, too bad ‘coz I nailed it and they didn’t! LoL! Anyway, that’s another story. XD

I played pRO and announced to my guild-mates about my victory. Deers (yes, A£endar revived Deers and he is now a full-fledged priest) then sent me a private message telling me that he and his friends were in the event too. He said he saw someone who he thought was me and he just wanted to make sure. The way he described the girl he saw didn’t match with my features so what I did was I gave him a link of my Yahoo profile which contained my most recent picture.

We then talked on the phone for several hours. We sometimes ran out of things to say and we would stay quiet for 20 minutes or more – sometimes he sang, sometimes I sighed, sometimes we said “hello” to check if the line’s still active. He then confessed his feelings to me “You are out of my league but I think I love you.” he said. I said “thanks” and “sorry” because I was not ready to give up my relationship with Anki. He said he was willing to wait for my answer.

I made some thinking the following day. It’s been six months since Anki left and only made phone calls once a month. He even greeted me “Happy Anniversary” and I told him “It’s not something I can consider ‘happy’ but it’s okay.” Before he left, he promised that he’d go back so we could spend our birthdays together … but when I asked him again when he’d be going home, his reply was “I don’t know, depends on when I’d get my Australian citizenship…” That could take another year or two. I am not strong enough to continue a long-distance relationship. My love for him slowly faded together with his promise.

Deers and I talked again. I was very anxious but I really wanted to hear his voice. It was a very long night and we mostly stayed silent. I summoned all my courage to say that I love him. I told him that I’ve decided to formally break up with Anki because I want to be with him from now on. I know it’s odd saying “I love you” to someone I haven’t seen IRL but what I feel for him is real.

April 13, 2004 . . . We scheduled our meet-up in the Ayala-MRT station. I was standing in front of Mercury Drug when I spotted a tall guy wearing a white shirt and blue jeans, just like he described what he would be wearing. I didn’t have my eyeglasses on but I had a hunch that it was him — and I was right! He approached me and introduced himself. I was picturing him to have a “nerdy” get-up but it was totally different from what I saw. He’s like a playboy / rockstar! He has all the physical qualities that I like in a guy — tall, chinky eyes and has a deep voice! JACKPOT!!! XD

I gave him a bracelet that I bought from The Bead Shop — it has a capsule with grain of rice (with our names on it) submerged in a blue liquid. I was lucky at guessing because blue is his favorite color. We spent quality time but I didn’t think that he’d be serious with regard to our relationship — it turns out that he is!

The Priest Ran Away with the Bride!!!

This in-game wedding was held a few years after but it's reminiscent to what happened IRL. LoL!

We’ve been together for SIX AND A HALF YEARS now (and still going stronger!!!). WOW! It all started because of pRO. I know that I am very lucky to have him — he has accepted me for who I am, even if I am not pretty. Haha! Relationships that started with chatting or gaming rarely works and I am so happy that ours does. Sure, we still encounter problems and it gets a little bumpy along the way but that doesn’t hinder us from loving each other.

Like what’s engraved on the personalized key-chain I gave him …

“If the things that happened to me never happened … I would never have met you, I would neve have your love and I will never know the true meaning of happiness.”™

Enchanted Kingdom trip 2008

Dada and Bebe goes to Enchanted Kingdom (2008)